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Staying deeply rooted to intuition, sensations, feelings rather than the intellect, premeditation, ideas. The book falls apart in my hands Its as if no one has read it for 40 years The pages have turned yellow brown with age and stiffened with coldness It s brittle and frozen It comes undone in my hands as if the sheer touch of it is too much to handle It is overwhelmed Has it waited out death for 4o years to die in warmth But I cannot allow this I will not aid in the murdering of something once so beautiful and filled with a thousand lives The pages fall off like the hair of a chemo patien The book falls apart in my hands Its as if no one has read it for 40 years The pages have turned yellow brown with age and stiffened with coldness It s brittle and frozen It comes undone in my hands as if the sheer touch of it is too much to handle It is overwhelmed Has it waited out death for 4o years to die in warmth But I cannot allow this I will not aid in the murdering of something once so beautiful and filled with a thousand lives The pages fall off like the hair of a chemo patient Death is staring right at it and humiliates by making it shed its beautiful veil Luxurious with organic flow that never had seized to grow until the day black forced itself upon it and stayed I am the doctor, not Death s accomplice I hold together the fallen pieces I find hope among the torn flesh bound and discolored skin pages If it has lived this long harboring a silent killer it will fight what has now become visible, shown its ugliness For what you can see is easier to kill than what you cannot This I find to be an improvement Now I can begin to help it heal and stop the quiet suffocation it has endured With the turn of each page a breath is taken Air is beginning of Life It will live And I too, will grow @Download Pdf ä The Diary of Anaïs Nin Volume 2 1934-1939 õ Beginning with Nin s arrival in New York, this volume is filled with the stories of her analytical patients There is a shift in emphasis also as Nin becomes aware of the inevitable choice facing the artist in the modern world Sensitive and frank Nin s diary is a dialogue between flesh and spirit Newsweek Edited and with a Preface by Gunther Stuhlmann Index 3.5 5 I want to introduce you to Ivan He is just out of jail for stealing a set of Dostoevsky s works The French judge was sympathetic He had good taste in literature He said If you had stolen a bad writer s books I would have given you sixty days No I will give you only a week And the day he left jail he received from the judge a set of Dostoevsky wrapped in brown paper U ltimately analysis will reveal that the rationalizations of man are a disguise to his personal bias, and that wo 3.5 5 I want to introduce you to Ivan He is just out of jail for stealing a set of Dostoevsky s works The French judge was sympathetic He had good taste in literature He said If you had stolen a bad writer s books I would have given you sixty days No I will give you only a week And the day he left jail he received from the judge a set of Dostoevsky wrapped in brown paper U ltimately analysis will reveal that the rationalizations of man are a disguise to his personal bias, and that woman s intuition was nothingthan a recognition of the influence of the personal in all thought This was a less engaging text than the first diary, but that may be a combination of sequel syndrome as well as the disillusionment Nin fell into with most of the figures who had until now powered her creatively, mentally, and sexually I wasn t a fan of most of these mentors Henry Miller is a trip, to put it politely , so while I did agree with most of her criticisms, it became harder to keep track of all the replacements she filled her days with subsequently, as well as increasingly aggravating to watch when her new bedroom obsessions quickly because utterly useless once assured of a generous patron However, it s always interesting to watch the world as framed by Nin s valuing of inner health over outer pretensions, such evaluations become especially pointed and fraught with the onset of WWII In closing, I wassympathetic to the text than I had been while reading it, as unlike Nin, I know what was coming, and the author, for all her romantic stereotypes, was not nearly as much as a bigot as most of her compatriots All in all, I may adjust the rating of this to a less generous tier later on, but I m still committed to continuing my newfound yearly ritual of reading this volumes of autobiography in sequence the space of a break between two thousand and xx and the next seems to be the perfect span of time during which to alternate between deep diving into a strange, yet compassionate, yet obtuse, yet incisive world, and sitting back and reflecting When Henry Miller wrote a fan letter to Kay Boyle she thought it was a letter from a very young writer, who, while admiring and praising her, could not help imitating her own style.Men think they live and die for ideas What a divine joke They live and die for emotional, personal errors, just as women do I most like this work at the beginning and the end The middle included some interesting, almost voyeuristic pictures of a few famous names, Miller a familiar face while Lawrence Durrell definitely took center stage, leastwise in my own recognition However, it all became too repetitive and contradictory at times, which is honestly what a diary usually ends up being, but it was rather ridiculous to read Nin saying the poor were blocked off from propagating revolutionary humanity by their very poverty, and then a few dozen pages later rhapsodizing over how her own poverty raised her artistry and human feeling to new heights The usual Orientalisms and Rromanisms cr o a p up every so often, and Nin s new mestizo boy toy Gonzalo brought indigenous Americana into the picture cut out mix It was heartening, though, when true feeling stemming from this disgraced first born hailing from Latinx plantations broke through Nin s hypocritical facade and forced her to recognize that the rich exigencies of a few at the expense of the many was no longer excusable to her, a change of mind likely exacerbate by Miller s objectifying world view that Nin grew increasingly tired of So, a bit lagging after such a tightly wound beginning and not at all foreshadowing the menacing clarity of the end, but that is a side effect of the drastic editing pre publication as much as the genuine record Nin created at the time, and I am admittedly very keen on seeing the next five war years, the oh so historically ripe time of 1939 1944, through the mind of this anything but boring woman An intermission, of sorts, but I did drop in on some juicy gossip, and the knowledge of how Nin and her friends history of publication would eventually play out gives the reader an interesting perspective on even the banal of tangentially related comments To some American writers anything but paradise was u nacceptable To the European it was part of the human condition, and something shared with other human beings Nin and I will always have a weird relationship that s informative and entertaining enough for me so long as I don t take her too seriously She s no de Beauvoir, but if I had to choose someone s brain to ride around in in order to get a glimpse of all those white boy and the odd girl writers who I m not sure are worth my time, it d have to be her Politics aside, her turn of phrase is always impeccable, and she has a talent for transforming the 20th century into the better of the existing nostalgically artistic portraits of yesteryear, obscene wealth and abject poverty living side by side long before the age of Instagram Speaking of such, that s one 21st century tool I can imagine Nin loving, although she d have a hard time coping with the Chinese of the place where I call home Now that this entry is done, as I said before, I don t plan on touching the next volume till sometime during 2020, at minimum One thing both Nin and I require is space, and I ve already binged my fill of inordinately lengthy compositions for the current fin de d cennie And I asked myself if the artist who creates a world of beauty to sustain and transcend and transmute suffering is wiser than those who believe a revolution will remove the causes of suffering The question remains unanswered. For some reason I enjoy hanging out with Anais during the summer So to keep in form, I read Diary 2 Not as good as the first, I still enjoyed her artistic writing style even the mundane is viwed as art and her colorful life It is hard to imagine doing some of the impulsive things she does e.g leaving her home to purchase a riverboat, etc In addition she continue to play the savior role for people around her, often at the expense of her own physical comfort These types of experience For some reason I enjoy hanging out with Anais during the summer So to keep in form, I read Diary 2 Not as good as the first, I still enjoyed her artistic writing style even the mundane is viwed as art and her colorful life It is hard to imagine doing some of the impulsive things she does e.g leaving her home to purchase a riverboat, etc In addition she continue to play the savior role for people around her, often at the expense of her own physical comfort These types of experiences make for a fun, interesting read Her books aren t life altering, but they do tend to grab my attention and Anais haunts me It may be her willingness to just live fully, her unwillingness to conform, her ability to see beauty in everything.I am not sure I guess I will need to wait until next summer I completely fell in love with Anais Nin and gobbled up her first three diaries And then, just like that, I saw the movie Henry and June a few weeks ago, and, well, her Diaries were off loaded to the guy at the Goodwill Donation center this past weekend along with All the Sad, Young Literary Men, Then We Came To The End, and How to Lose Friends and Alienate People How could I fall so hard and then feel so duped I don t know What does that say about moi I don t know I think what got to me I completely fell in love with Anais Nin and gobbled up her first three diaries And then, just like that, I saw the movie Henry and June a few weeks ago, and, well, her Diaries were off loaded to the guy at the Goodwill Donation center this past weekend along with All the Sad, Young Literary Men, Then We Came To The End, and How to Lose Friends and Alienate People How could I fall so hard and then feel so duped I don t know What does that say about moi I don t know I think what got to me in the movie and she is played by a really amazing actress was that it just portrayed her as some rich, bored housewife who wanted to explore sex and psychology all day long just because she hadn t until Henry swooped in with all of his neato Bohemian friends and lovers And this somehow painted her as a selfish cheating on her husband , mind absorbed not in her sexual feeling like her writing so well illustrates or seems to illustrate , out of touch aristocrat typeAh so des ka But the movie is one thing and Nin s writing is another I do idolize her ability to convey emotion on the page and I have yet to read Delta of Venus and all her other letters, and I m sure I will at some point For now, I have to let the memory of how the movie painted her fade XO Rather than talk about what I learned, I just wanted to warn people that before buying these books they should check to see whether it is the censored or unexpurgated version I didn t know and bought 3 censored volumes this was because people she mentioned were still living at the time of publication Republishing was the full version These are still worth reading if you can find the uncensored ones This ought to be read in the fall, sitting on a bench in Thompkins Square Park in the East Village , while sipping on an Americano from 9th Street Espresso Ideally you ll be resting your feet on a skateboard Or maybe that s just me. New York and Paris Gonzalo the hunky Spaniard guitarist, revolutionary, gigolo and his awful crippled wife, who move in with Anais on the houseboat in the Seine not a spoiler The Spanish Civil war The end of Anais and Henry The advent of the outrageously young, the dizzily intelligent Laurence Durrell The visit to Fez and the publication of House of Incest Oh, the older I get, the better these Diaries are now that I ve heard of Brassai and Artaud and James Laughlin the publisher, I ve New York and Paris Gonzalo the hunky Spaniard guitarist, revolutionary, gigolo and his awful crippled wife, who move in with Anais on the houseboat in the Seine not a spoiler The Spanish Civil war The end of Anais and Henry The advent of the outrageously young, the dizzily intelligent Laurence Durrell The visit to Fez and the publication of House of Incest Oh, the older I get, the better these Diaries are now that I ve heard of Brassai and Artaud and James Laughlin the publisher, I ve read Proust It just gets richer with time the thing about anais nin s diaries is that they are all drawn from a much larger work that of nin s life long diaries so each volume is just an excerpt, as such, it s not like one volume really stands out thematically from the pack that much history politics wise, i think this is the one where the going is getting rough in europe, world war two is about to get started nin is participating a lot in cafe salon culture, making friends with various artists, reading manuscripts, still financ the thing about anais nin s diaries is that they are all drawn from a much larger work that of nin s life long diaries so each volume is just an excerpt, as such, it s not like one volume really stands out thematically from the pack that much history politics wise, i think this is the one where the going is getting rough in europe, world war two is about to get started nin is participating a lot in cafe salon culture, making friends with various artists, reading manuscripts, still financially supporting henry miller, etc she is starting to get very interested in psychology analysis i think this is the one where she starts analysis with dr otto rank when i told jared i was reading these books, he was kind of critical he said he didn t like them because they are just all about the famous people that anais nin knows it s like she is name dropping luxuriating in how utterly fabulous her star studded life is i can see that perspective now that we are seventy years removed many of the events people that nin mentions in her diaries have been given an official historical context, but the thing is, we are living in our own historical context right now we just don t know how it s all going to play out in seventy years because none of us has a time machine it s entirely possible that i am friends with someone who could go on to be a culturally relevant writer, theorist, filmmaker, whatever even if it s just in a small way i write about the people i know in my diaries, the things they do, the projects i admire, etc etc why not that s what s on my mind nin had no way of predicting which of her friends would become famous sometimes she spilled a lotink on the people who toiled in obscurity than the people who are really well known now i guess a lot of people find her diaries interesting to read because they are full of famous people, artists, events, historical moments, that s fine but you have to consider that she probably didn t really realize what she was recording while she was living it it was just luck circumstance, right